Hardest job I ever did

19 Oct

The last few days have been so difficult because we missed out on Sunday nights routine sleeping which meant by Monday evening I was beat I had nothing to give, at all. My mood was lifted as I walked through the door by Jamie hugging me and a smiling screaming Reagan running and diving on me just because I was home. Yes, the rewards for the hard work are huge but knowing you can not rest until Reagan has gone to bed and even then if Jamie or more likely Lincoln needs me it might not be until far later.

We sat at the table and ate tea, but all I could do was pick at mine I was so tired, and then we went upstairs for the bath time and remember just leaning on the bath side watching Reagan who was wondering why dad wasn’t splashing around like he usually does but as I said I had nothing to give and it was all I could do to get Reagan in to bed and Lincoln help Jamie settle on the sofa.

Jamie allowed me to go to bed first and I reckon I was asleep by 20:15 but gave my word I would be back down stairs by midnight, and I was! That 4 hours really did the trick and I was invincible as I sent Jamie to bed for her turn, it only got stressful when my energy levels dropped again around 5am and by 6am when Jamie came down carring what looked like 2 barrage balloons up her t-shirt I was beat again and we passed on the stairs as she took over and I went to get another hour before work. The week has just got harder as its gone on too because of Sunday with the added problem of Lincoln’s colic worsening especially at night. When the sun goes down he really suffers for some reason and last night I was suppossed to do the first shift but from 21:00 when Jamie went to bed until 22:00 he screamed and nothing I did was stopping him prompting the “Hero to Zero” post.

Missing one nights sleep really makes things tougher than they usually are and you question yourself more as fatigue and exhaustion just grind you completly to a standstill. The four of us are so good together and the good times are starting to come back but at the moment they’re few and brief but getting more frequent everyday! It is the hardest job we have ever done but it’ll get easier….so they say?

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