This is hard!

21 Sep

It should be Jamie that’s having the five day blues not me? Lincoln is so different to Reagan, he is so needy and is taking up so much of Jamie’s time?

Yes I know they are completely different babies but you can only go on your life experiences and I only have Reagan’s first 16 months to go on…

I can’t see past the screaming I am finding it difficult to bond with him because he needs his mom so much, and if he doesn’t he is asleep…or screaming?

People say be honest and I always am on this blog partly because family in America are interested in how things are going but mostly because I get a lot out of putting my feelings down in writing. (i’m not sure of the split on what I just wrote but you get me drift…I hope)

My job is the easiest by far but I’m tired, tired and frustrated that I’m not sat in an armchair at 5am with my son in my arms the sun on his face “doing my bit” all excited because I’ll get a pat on the back from everyone for being a “modern man” knowing Jamie will walk into the living room kiss me on the cheek thanking me for being a wonderful husband and father then brewing up and making breakfast for us all…

…she is required to be with Lincoln almost all the time and I am concerned that she needs time to heal physically and mentally after giving birth I love her and know that she will do ANYTHING required to bring up her babies and fore go her own needs but that scares me.

I will do anything for my family but can’t breast feed (although me moobs aren’t bad, they just don’t lactate…if they did I’d nevr go out!) sorry where was I oh yes I am off work for 2 weeks and will do all I can to help Jamie but for now Lincoln rules the roost….am I rambling?

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