It is well documented in recent posts that I move on from my current job a week tomorrow and as I try to carry on as I always have it is difficult to comprehend not being responsible for all the IT that I have installed and maintained since 2011

I have so many emotions going on in me head right now one of which is fear that it will all crumble once I let go…although once I hand over my phone and it stops ringing I am positive relief will be the overwhelming emotion?

Looking forward will be the order of the day as I leave next Wednesday. There is no need to look back, although I will be curious to hear from colleagues in the coming months on how “different” it is since I left

6 more days!

A ska rockumentery, a Two Tone story, my high school life in music turned out to be nothing of the sort? We sat down to watch a BBC 6 part series about the Specials and ended up watching a drama about life in 1981 and how music was a way out from addiction poverty and terrorism with a sound track from the time.

I felt anxious once invested in the characters being portrayed willing them first to survive and eventually succeed, the writing so good it had you trying and in my case failing to guess the story. It contained so many sub plots twist and turns that even after watching the sixth episode I dreamt why it ended so horrifically for one of the villains because I wasn’t able to unravel it while watching the show.

5 stars would highly recommend

Got into renovating a plane tonight one that I got off Leslie last year which needs a bit of TLC

My favourite thing to do is always with Jamie woke up next to her, had to go to get dog food she said she’ll come with me, she said she wanted to swap the chair in her office for the two seater in the living room we just did it. When she said she was off to the supermarket, I went with her and as a family we went to a birthday party at the Legion my family is ace, and I just love spending my life with Jamie.

A quick extra blog before i go to bed

We have just heard that Auntie Nemily has just given birth to a baby boy

Welcome to the world, Andrew Carter Hawes

As I wind down my time at The Willows I am made aware, by people I have helped over the years, how much they appreciate me and for what I have done for them. Its nice and I don’t think I realised what an impact if that is the correct word to describe I have made in 13 years?

I spent a few hours at one of the surgeries today and as I walked in I was hugged twice before I got to the bottom of the stairs and told how sad they are that I am leaving…

I filled in my exit interview form when I got home and maybe I was kinder than I might have been if I had filled it in when I hated going to work for what seemed a lifetime and I was not being heard and I had the indignity of being reprimanded for being negative. The only negative thoughts I ever had were the ones they were driving me to feel which if uncontrolled could have been catastrophic but throughout I ALWAYS did my job!

Maybe appreciation and understanding was what I needed back then, instead of three pages of A4 containing documented evidence of my perceived negativety being read to me without warning.

Those people are not the ones genuinely telling me how sad they are that I have decided to move on but they will probably stand there on my last day and tell me the rest of the staff at Langdale w hat a great employee I have been?

I begin my last full week on Monday and I intend to carry on as normal…

Found myself going that extra mile to make the Willows work even though it will not help me but will help those who probably don’t deserve it ot appreciate it!

Went to Winsford and unbowed and put together 14 computers fitted and connected switches and access points to make Tuesday easier something my colleague would never do nor appreciate

Hey ho I probably won’t ever change?

We played Broughton in the first match of the new season in our new home Middlewich Royal British Legion under new pool rules, and we were beaten 10 nil a harsh scoreline but it laid the foundation for how our season played out. We played really well in most frames but either made a mistake or could not take an opportunity, and frames were difficult to win unless we were either playing our best or lucky….

Tonight, having finished bottom of the Middlewich and District Pool League for the first time in Steventons we were beaten again by Broughton in the Plate KO semi-final without winning a frame?

Got home tonight and although it had rained Sunday and again, Bank Holiday Monday I was desperate to mow the lawns for the first time this year, so got the strimmer out  first and after 30 seconds it ran out of wire. After recharging the spool and reinstating it, I cut the edges back before getting out the mower not confident it would start having stood since September untouched.

I needn’t have worried it started third time and the lawns were mowed, the best bit was that as I cracked open a beer and surveyed my work it started to rain…a win for me but jeez enough with the rain!

A day spent pottering is never a wasted day