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After realising she will never give up on Reagan she also realised that not going to the MIT conference is cutting your nose off so decided to go as soon as her daughter got home from school and downloaded.
She felt better doing that she did that but Reagan barely gave her 5 minutes if that so off she went, why not?
I was once asked by Jamie “Do you want children?”
It was a pivotal moment in our future and my response was not immediate 18 years ago but as always once I had resolved the question in me head I said “Yes!”
Since that moment we have created this life we now live which I would not change for the world!
Jamie never had that thought or doubt ever in her life, she was put on this earth to be a mommy, and there is NOTHING in her life above that! That includes me!
When Reagan was born and quite closely followed by Lincoln her life felt complete and she was as happy as she could possibly be! She was complete she was a mom and from that moment, her whole life has been directed towards her children before anything else.
Reagan is under a lot of stress right now, which Mom is desperately trying to help her through the most stressful part of her short life.
Mom this week now wakes up and instead of moaning about not getting enough sleep which we always do lol she gets up to make pancakes or bacon or both in the hope that her baby can eat before a GCSE exam
The issue today and every day is the scorn disdain and how horrible Reagan is towards the one person in this world that will love and support her no matter what!
I confronted Reagan tonight about how she’s makes Mom feel when she dismisses every effort Mom makes just make your life as good as it could be with “Ugh She’s just being dramatic!”
Reagan showed me tonight how little respect she has for her mom and that as a teenager she knows best…
You are wrong Reagan
I am your second biggest fan and I will ALWAYS support your biggest fan and protect her from imploding because she thinks she’s not good enough
You get one Mom and you got the best how big of a dick are you gonna feel when you realise that?
I just want to be there when you do….
Work then pool
Reagan is impressing me with her attitude towards GCSEs upto now although only three down English Lit, Religious studies and Biology paper 1 she has handled it VERY well. She sat with me after school this afternoon and explained how she can’t do anything about the exams she’s already done so forget them and move on to the next which is not until Thursday so a day off tomorrow.
She says, she feels ok about how she’s done so far and I believe her and believe in her that she will do her best and that will be enough.
Today was Reagan’s first proper GCSE exam and it was nerve wracking as a parent to manage her this morning because if my nerves were 100 I imagine hers were a million.
She was OK when I got downstairs and looked very composed so we just managed her emotions had a laugh lots of smiles and she left at 07:45 in the rain but Elouisa dad was taking both of them so it was ok
Cut to 5pm and she came home really upbeat and positive so again we managed that feeling feeding her positive vibes. She said English Literature went well, it was easily the best “first” exam because she’s good at it, it was a confidence booster. We know there’ll be bumpy roads ahead that will take a lot more management but for now we’ll take happy upbeat Reagan
You may read this one day and you will realise that me and Mom want you to do your best, because that’s enough!
We are and always be your biggest fans!
Me arms are dropping off like every May time when the hedge starts to grow and the lawns start requiring cutting at least once a week every year there’s the taming the garden day.
Today was the day and to be honest its not even hard work probably less work Jamie does at the gym and she pays for that…?
Anyway I was cutting the hedge and just thought if I had enough money I would get someone in to dig it all out and put in a fence which would not only reduce the maintenance it would give us 2 feet at the side and at the front. Its definitely something for the future when not only it will be easier to maintain we may have 4 cars to park…
I feel lazy when I lay in bed till past nine but on the other hand after working all week I should be able to relax it just never feels right. This morning I have to admit last night was lingering but a walk with Bill followed by a sausage butty I was right as rain.
Lincoln went to see his girlfriend Reagan went to Starbucks with her mate to revise and Jamie and I went to B&Q
Buying wood might be me best day out but Jamie needed the promise of Starbies at the very least before she said she’d say ok I’ll join you?
Went out with the ex Assisi crowd last night a few pints in Spoons first then went to Raffaele and Italian on the cobles. The food was very good I had:
Starter: GAMBERONI, King prawns in chilli butter sauce on toasted homebaked bread
Main: BRANZINO LIVORNESE, Grilled Seabass with olives, capers and cherry tomatoes sauce with potato cake
I washed it down with nice Merlot
The starter was good but not something I would choose again, prawns on toast for 11 quid and it was just good?
Main I thought was exceptional the piece of fish was really big cooked perfectly crispy skin the sauce was very tasty and complimented the dish perfectly the potato cake was also good too!
The party broke up early so I called at the Cheese for a night cap
Waiting for Lincoln to arrive back from an inter-school athletics meet in Warrington as soon as he was dropped off on Home Bargains carpark he jumped straight in to my car and off we sped to Macclesfield again.
Better late than never we got there at 18:50 20 minutes late so I went to play darts at Silktown Snooker club only to get a call and hour later to say they were finishing early can you come and pick me up…
Its great that he is involved in so many things and has such a variety of pastimes it just means we need to support him by taking to these things.
Always been pretty regular apart from the odd occasion when a certain meal may have upset the equilibrium so to speak but the last few days have been a worry if I’m honest!
Every daily ache and pain has been intensified all the things I just accept as “getting old” made me think, fuck is this it, it’s this the sign, the final straw… me feet hurt, me knees hurt, I get piles, me back gives me jip, me shoulders ache, me teeth hurt, me eyes hurt, I get headaches ffs things hurt but I just get on with it, that’s just how it is, but when a new ailment occurs me mind goes “let’s have a party”!
Look for blood in your stool that’s a sure sign your going to die, but what if you can’t produce a stool what then? Do I strain and blow a valve, I am pretty certain blood will be there if I do that, but is that the sign or is that just piles?
Not one to moan or stress out others all this has been going through my head for days until today when I was finally relieved of my burden.
Not wanting to go into too much detail but the signs were good this morning and by mid afternoon I was as Tom Petty might say “Free Falling”. Six visits and the pains in me belly subsided and I immediately felt better.
No shit sherlock!