We always question our parenting but are usually reassured by each other firstly and from outside the home too which helps us believe we are doing ok. So its hard when someone says either of our children are not perfect but that is now what we are hearing about Lincoln, that he is being hauled out of class for swearing or being reprimanded for refusing to wear school uniform which just doesn’t make sense but its not one person its several?

For a while now he has been “ticking” which involves head twitching that he says he can’t help, and now there  are sounds like whistling and as mentioned swearing which again he says he can’t help. The involuntary twitching we were told best to ignore after trips to the doctor and getting blown off by, because drawing attention to them could make them worse, so we did. To be told now that he’s telling teachers to “fuck off” and being told to leave the classroom can’t be ignored and we have to do something.

We sat him down and talked it through with him at length and he told us that it happens when he feels stressed which is fair enough but it only happens in school. He said that’s the only time I am stressed.

The school called and said they need to get him assessed and that a school psychologist councillor will be brought in, so this is about to get officially serious for him because the school want to help if he has a problem, so do we.

His behaviour is changing he is 14 years old but this has happened so quickly and come out of nowhere it has really caught us off guard and made us extremely worried when he has never presented anything remotely like this before and for us the catalyst was Wizard of Oz his school performance which I guess could have triggered underlying issue?

Tomorrow the school are going to call us to formulate a plan going forward so we can get him the help he needs!

Talking to Davy on a night out with Jamie’s mates he told us how things in his village in Malawi were becoming reality but how shocked he was that they had given him the go ahead for a hospital! He told us that he could not believe they said it but felt overwhelmed by the enormity of the project that felt impossible.

I told him that all he had to do was believe, because once he did it will become possible.

No it won’t easy, nothing good ever is but it is possible and that means everything!

We are running low on toilet paper we only have 3 packs left in the store we need to to go to Costco

I think she secretly loves going to Costco?

We went to Costco leaving Reagan studying and dropping Lincoln off at his girlfriends house on the way. For me I get to spend quality time with Jamie, for her she gets to buy American stuff

Thats a win win

Reagan left for school somewhat unprepared or so it seemed, still revising History while struggling to eat any breakfast, watched by her friend who had to  wait while she gathered her things before they both left.

French and History exams awaited them both and although the first one was important to do well in I was concerned that she may struggle in History a subject she intends to study at A level, if she feels unprepared.

Let’s just say I need not have worried as she burst into the bedroom where I was working proclaiming Best exam ever although Physics maybe still number one!

Dad it was perfect everything I’d revised was on the paper even the big question was on what I was revising on my white board at the breakfast table. I found it quite easy. I told her that’s because the hard work she’d put in was paying off!

I asked Did every one else find it easy which she said actually no most people seemed to say they struggled which means they just didn’t work it hard enough.

She said French was great as well and feels confident she did really well in that too.

I am so proud of her and how she is handling these exams proving to herself mostly that hardwork pays of, and that might prove the most valuable lesson of all, but for now I just made sure she knew how very proud I am of her!

For some reason Physics has finally clicked with Reagan and last night she was buzzing that the revision was flowing and she just seemed to get what they’d taught her finally.

So it was fingers crossed today that she carried that confidence through into the exam it self!

When she arrived home she gushed with excitement “Dad it was brilliant, easily my best exam so far,I even answered the circuit questions…!”

Wow