It is so rare to get through a mealtime without any sort of stress just lately and tonight was no exception Reagan as always refused to eat as she does most nights but tonight I was “instructed” to ignore her. Which I did but it really gets on every one of my nerve endings when I have to sit through her whining and whinging while everybody else tries to eat their meal. Mommy gets upset because every night she creates these beautiful meals that she admits is not her favourite part of cooking, just to be told “I don’t like it” or “I don’t want it” by Reagan who hasn’t even tasted it yet. Every night its the same with very few exceptions and tonight I sat there trying to ignore her and Mommy getting abused (if that sounds too strong of an expression I’m sorry) each time she tries gently to coax Reagan to eat.

Eventually Mommy’s patience give way and she leaves the table to wash Lincoln’s Mine and her own plate leaving me sat next to a still whinging Reagan when I blew…

Shouting at her to “JUST EAT YOUR TEA I AM FED UP WITH HEARING THIS EVERY NIGHT!” as I stormed out of the kitchen.

Yes she had won she had got what she wanted she controlled me and that thought made me feel even worse as I sat trying to regain my composure in the living room. I returned and ignoring her again to pick up Lincoln so we along with Mommy could go and play in the living room while Reagan sat on her own to eat at least some of her tea. She sat in there fo 40 minutes and never touched a morsel but all the while whinging and crying trying to get us to crack, which we did not. If she asks to go for a wee we never refuse and she knows this and asked 3 times in that 40 minute period to go so each time we took her watched as she sat…and did nothing on the potty so ach time she was returned to her chair in the kitchen where she remained until bathtime when we led her upto a pre prepared bath which she got straight into and we proceeded with normal bathtime.

We are at a cross roads with her behaviour right now and we are worried we will make a mistake but something has to change because she is winning the battle with me at meal times and I know she is winning the battle with Mommy when they go out together walking. We sat tonight and discussed a plan of action which sounds good and I will elaberate on in coming blogs but for now I have to find a way to rise above it all and not “BLOW” like this evening.