My work ethic is something I am proud of and means if I work for you, your going to get an employee you can depend on and will be there when needed, always.

We are due to visit London as a family for Lincoln’s birthday next t weekend, something Mommy had planned to do for ages and we were thinking of going down on train on the morning of his birthday but that plan was scuppered because the train drivers decided they’d rather strike than work on that day. Mommy quickly booked a hotel for Friday and Saturday nights allowing us to travel down Friday and return Sunday. Problem solved except now we needed someone to look after Billy which again Mommy came up with a solution and thankfully our neighbours from across the road stepped in and said they could look after him. All this because the train drivers decided to not work because they now don’t think the contract they signed to drive trains, isn’t enough…..unless the Queen dies then their union tells them best to go back to work incase people hate us too much during national mourning

In my job which is being eroded away by corporatisation, it becoming increasingly hard to maintain my work ethic when all around me people are failing to do their jobs certainly how I would do it but more and more how it should be done by everybody. A website broken but now it doesn’t matter even though it client facing, or new software no better that we already have but that doesn’t matter either because the decision has been made.

Today after two weeks, the IT support at the corporate head office still have not added a username to a server I don’t have admin rights to add myself, the irony in this example is neither do they. They employ a third party to administer that server and can only request that company do the job and when I chased the job late this afternoon I asked if it would be done today the reply was, “that depends on if they get around to it!” and I just thought I would NEVER say that to a customer even if it were true, I would have replied politically and chased the job behind the scenes until it was done….but it doesn’t matter anymore?

Not how I like to do things and it does not lie well with me to let people down but I may have to get used to it I fear!

On a different topic I should also mention my today is my 300th day sober #oneyearsober

I didn’t want to write a blog about a craving but I have to say if someone offered me a cold pint of lager today I would have drank it not sure why but today was a day I craved alcohol not to get drunk maybe but to quench my thirst and lager was what I thought would do it? I got home around 3pm and drank a cup of coffee and soon after a bottle of Lucozade then at teatime I had a can of coke all things that have taste water was not going to cut it, I sit here now at 10pm still thirsty but halfway down a glass of fizzy water an this is sort of quenching my thirst finally but as I flicked through posts on Facebook earlier I saw a couple toasting with lager and white wine and I thought it looked fucking amazing, wierd I literally haven’t thought about it for weeks but today was just one of those days I had to abstain hour by hour rather than just living my sober life?

135 days sober, dry December, January, February and about to complete dry March but today wasn’t easy

Today I filled out a form to enroll in the dentist surgery that Jamie Reagan and Lincoln use and there was all the usual questions that I have answered many times before about my past and present health but today I told the truth when answering ALL the questions which I have never done before on such a form.

I would wager a lot of people reach the alcohol question its the first time first they are forced to count up the units they consume per week and at that moment they know they can not tell the truth and proceed to knock off enough units to not look like an alcoholic!

This is exactly what I have done all my life until today

Today I told the truth I totalled up all the units and then wrote down the exact amount of alcohol I consume per week!

118 Days

On 13th November 2021 when I thought enough was enough I am going try not drinking for a year I am not sure how serious I actually was with alcohol still in my system from the night before? I knew it wasn’t going to be easy if in fact possible at all but here I am 100 days since my last drink and still going strong, most of the time finding it quite easy not even thinking about drinking at all.

The hardest times are when I know I am not allowed a drink but the occasion deserves one like a nice steak should be accompanied by a glass of red wine or a curry washed down with a beer thats when it disappoints me that Id be breaking my word and my streak if I had one. Its not a craving at these points it’s what else could I drink instead and nothing matches the wine or beer at these times!

I still intend to go a year sober but COVID is disappearing the sun will come out there could be trouble ahead but for now here’s the next 100…..or 264 which ever