Jamie had spent a lot of time this week preparing to preach at church and as I sat there listening to her compared to everyone else that spoke she was head and shoulders better.

It was a polished engaging delivery and the message was concise and interesting which captivated her audience for exactly half an hour as planned.

The feed back she receives each time she preaches is always amazing and it should encourage her and build her confidence if it needs it…

She makes me proud to watch her flourish grow and love what she is doing!

My family has changed, its evolved Jamie has a career which takes her away, tonight she’s in London at the Diva Awards a red carpet event which I know she’ll be loving, rubbing shoulders with celebrities and famous people she has no idea who they are.

Reagan is 15 years old soon to be 16 and after school went to Starbucks for coffee and a revision session with a freind. She came home for 50 minutes showered and changed ate some pizza and left with Elouise to attend youth church.

Lincoln got home from school and ate a snack before showering and changing after which he would have sat around looking at his phone until skating but as soon as I finished work I took him to Mozzas to get pizza which he cooked and we ate along with Elouise who when offered a slice took up that offer.

With the night now my own I took Billy which has to be done, called at the Kings Lock for a VERY poorly pulled pint of Guinness before sliding into a hot bath and getting my full on relax going.

As I lay there I felt fleetingly that I serve no purpose that I am no longer needed by anyone but I also thought that I might just be the steady that they all know is at home the constant safety they know is here when they return?

Boring to most but the one they can always count on to be home if they ever need me….?

That’s ok

Clients Employers colleagues no one cares as much as I do about delivering support as good as I can possibly deliver and I am not sure anyone else cares a single jot!

So frustrating….

With Jamie rested up after her trip it was house cleaning day, a nailed on certainty because Lincoln announced at the weekend that he would like to invite Liv round for tea. My immediate thoguht was “At least the house will be clean lol”

This announcement meant house proud mamma bear mode was activated and there was no way Lincoln’s first girlfriend would be walking in to the homestead and thinking it was dirty (even though it wasn’t) her first impression was going to be shiny clean and smelling nice.

By the time Liv arrived I was out walking Bill Mom was out at her new gym class in Northwich and Reagan was clucking around playing hostess [rolls eyes]

I only breifly introduced myself not wanting to overwhelm the girl and left them to eat the spaghetti bolognas mom had prepared and Reagan had finished off. When Jamie arrived home the kitchen was clean and empty and the kids were upstairs. After eating our tea Jamie went to look for them and found Linc and Liv in bed…well on it watching a movie. The door was open which is the rule but momma bear was still sad that her baby was growing up in front of her eyes…

….and I was proved right, the house was clean!

Reagan got picked up by Aunty Helen and after taking Lincoln to Specsavers to pick up new glasses to replace the ones he broke at skating a week ago, that left me to wait around until Jamie arrived in Crewe. It was a long trip and I was looking forward to seeing her but had to wait until 19:26 before she finally arrived and as we were both starving we got a curry on the way home. Not sure the title of this blog was Linco’s bins my emotion or the heat of the curry but the later made mine water a lot.